Baby cries

Today I was running around and pushing it close to Bennett's next feed. Of course he started crying. Vigorously. Which almost never happens thus far. Listening to his cry, I started crying myself. Not because I was panicking or feeling bad, but because it was so good to hear his little cry. Something Harrison physically… Continue reading Baby cries

Happy Mother’s Day

One day late, I want to wish my fellow grievers a Happy Mother's Day. It actually may not be "happy", it may be sad and incredibly emotional for many of us. Many of us may hate this day. This year was the first year I've ever heard of "Bereaved Mother's Day". Probably because this is… Continue reading Happy Mother’s Day

Photography from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep

When Harrison's grim prognosis was finally and realistically presented to us, one of his many great nurses suggested pictures taken with Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep. As an L&D nurse, I had dealt with the volunteer photography group a handful of times, but it never crossed my mind when it was my own… Continue reading Photography from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep


Last Easter, Harrison was relatively stable, critical, but we were finally able to hold him. He was off the special ventilator that vibrated him constantly. He still had many troubles with collapsing his lungs, high pressure and oxygen settings on the ventilator. We had no idea what the future held. He loved being held, he… Continue reading Easter

Pregnancy Etiquette

A while ago I read an interesting blog about living in a pregnancy obsessed culture while dealing with loss. Read the article here At first I thought that's crazy, I don't see that at all. Even as an OB nurse, I didn't feel like our culture was "pregnancy obsessed". I felt surrounded by it, but… Continue reading Pregnancy Etiquette